went from all good to all bad.. ORDINARY LOVE SHIT

      OK sooo let me start off by saying if you know me then you know that im a legit Joe Budden fan. Wouldn't call myself a stan, but I love the mans music. I been a loyal fan for years now, way before it was cool to do so... You know how he got a whole bunch of new fans after OLS3, yeah I was there way before that shit....I went to his show in 2010, out in Boston at the middle east. We got there extra early just so we could get a good spot. Smh got there and that shit wasn't even half way full.... I was hurt but I was also like "fuck yeah more joey for me.".... There was literally 4 girls there, including me and Esthers bitch ass, wack big boobied self on the fucking stage. I really cant stand that bitch but whatever. Nowadays if you go to a joey show you gotta pray the shit doesnt sell out, smh you groupies really have no chill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. IM HAPPY FOR HIM THOUGH.. I was never really sexually attracted to him like that, hes light skinned and I'm not really into that shit LMFAO..... I loved him when he couldnt even get his @ name to be joebudden (real niggas remember that)... but his music really just made me have a different love for him, always have and always will.. 

      Iight lemme start my story now. SOO I go to Miami, spring break. Living this yolo life with my girls. Really just enjoying ourselves. BUT I see a tweet  saying that slaughterhouse was gonna be in Fort Lauderdale. WHATTTTT, I knew I had to get tickets. Me and my girl made a few phone calls and boom we got 4 tickets to go see them. So now im amp’d. im not really a slaughterhouse fan, but fuck it. I can rock out to a few of their songs, I wasn't missing this shit for anything. So we get ready, we were planning on going to KOD after because it was a Monday, and shit we were on spring break so we we're gonna have to turn up eventually...

      We head out... Now something ALOT of people dont know about me is that im a little bitch, seriously...... I can talk to just about anyone about anything, but certain people i get real nervous around..... IDK how to explain it and IDK what the hell it happens, but it just does.. I get like a shy little kid around certain people.. Now I told myself I wasnt gonna drink that much....BUT anyone that knows my girl clap, knows that fucking girl will drink anything in front of her. MORE POWER TO HER. I was gonna enjoy this show, and remember everything. We get there, it wasn’t too packed but it deff wasn’t empty. We were the only group of females in there. 4 good looking females looking like they’re going to the club, everyone must of thought we was looking for some hard dick and bubble gum smh, but i didnt care... i was gonna act like the true fan I am with these 6 inch heels on and everything..

                NOW none of my girls are joe budden fans, shit I don’t even think they knew joey was in a fucking group. But them being my girls they knew how much it meant to go to the show so they just thugged it out for me. The show was almost over, Royce being from Detroit ended up playing some Eminem. One of my girls knew the song, shit I was proud as shit, she knew the whole fucking thing I couldn’t stop laughing. But one of my girls said she was gonna make a phone call so we could do the meet and greet. And her being the amazing woman she is, we got the flag to go. So nooowwww im just a mess. Nervous, sober, probably was sweating so fucking bad. We get in the back and this nigga walks by me, NIGGA NIGGA NIGGA. I didn’t even need for him to stop and say shit, I was good with just looking at him from a distance cus im a fucking creep. Im Helga Pataki from hey Arnold on the low..

      He comes over, and everyone’s likes "Spank loves you..." "Omg spank wants a pic".. And I’m just standing there probably red as shit like “Hi”. This nigga hugs me, idk that was like the most nervous ive ever been in my life.  THIS MANS MUSIC HAS DONE SOO MUCH FOR ME, made me get through a lot of shit. Idc if you humans don’t understand, the love I have for his music is just something I can’t put in words.... So I get my picture, and this is where the fuckery begins. CLAP wants a pic. She holds onto him and says "yo joe just throw up YOLO" ( as she throws up our “Y” for yolo”) hes like wtf no, im not throwing that shit up… she mugs this nigga like fuck you.. smh.. She gets her picture, joe just looked mad as shit LOL.
                            

      We get to hang out in the back room with slaughterhouse for a lil, took a few shots with Royce. It was cool as shit, just an awesome ass experience. So they invited us to KOD with them, we were already planning on going there so it was a go.Mannnnnnnnnnn, do you understand how happy I was? I get to go to KOD, and be around my favorite rapper. Jesus was really on my side at the time. We hop in the car, “B” being the fake drunk sober fran, she’s driving; I’m in the front seat. They told us to follow their truck so they can go and change and then we’ll head out. Fuck yesssss, I was just happy to know that joe budden was within 20 feet of me. They end up taking forever, so we drive in front of their truck basically to tell them to hurry their black asses up… then, we see someone run up on the car. Its  muthafuckin joey, he just jumps into the backseat. Now at this point, I can’t breathe. I’m just like do I turn on his music, do I start rapping. Do I fake sleep wtf do I do.

      He says just bring me to the hotel.....NOWWW claps drunk ass is in the back with her feet on the back of the seat, like a drunk bitch. And my other girl “D” was mad how he “approached” the car and jumped in. So she’s literally arguing with him. YES SHE IS ABOUT ONE TONE AWAY FROM CUSSING THIS NIGGA OUT. I’m just sad, mad, I really wanted to crash into a wall so everyone would just STFU and die.  I’m embarrassed as shit. My favorite rapper is in OUR car and my frans are fighting with him. LIKE WHO RAISED THESE HEATHENS. Claps just being drunk and saying dumb shit and joe goes “yo yall gotta learn how to handle your liquor” NIGGA WHAT. So now my hoodrat side was gonna come out, I’m like “NO” but that’s all I said. In my head I stood up for everyone "NO BITCH YOU CAN GET THE FUCK OUT" but nothing but "NO" came out my mouth. I mean he beat esther ass who am I to put this man in his place? Nah im good lmfao JUST KIDDING, i had too much love to tell him to "shut the fuck up".... He ended up going back and forth with them, til we get to the fucking hotel. I was in the front seat writing out my suicide letter, cus I just didn’t wanna be alive anymore, no point really.. My favorite rapper hated my frans meaning he hated me. Meaning he didnt want me listening to music meaning my life was over....

      So by this time I just wanna go to KOD be drunk and see bitches with fake butts with the Mood God. He invites us up to his room (and yes this sounds so slutty and yall are probably thinking someone’s bouta get fucked so hard to MM2 but continue reading....) We go up to his room, and just sit there. He takes his shoes off, sits Indian style on the couch. This fucking nigga looked like buddah with a damn cigarette in his hand... I remember clear as day, the Knicks were playing. So I was thinking about bringing up JR Smith to spark a convo, but then I was like nah this really aint gonna make him laugh, WTF spank JR Smith smashed his ex queen why would you even think that you dumb bitch.... Im really just so fucking corny. So I sat there, and watched this basketball game. Just thinking of how I can tell him that I really love him and his music and I’m not a groupie, even though i may look like one..... Because no matter how you look at it, any decent looking girl is a groupie IDCIDC.... Were sitting here, all silent. Claps drunk in the corner putting his clothes on and shit. She ask to use his computer, this bitch tweets from his computer “IM ON JOE BUDDENS LAPPIE TOPPIE” I really fucking hate her as a person. 
                                        

      He wanted ice cream so he went down to the vending machines, to get some.... “B”’s ass went with him, I love that girl but I mean if someone was gonna fuck joey we were all voting her to do so. They should of never left us in that damn room. Clap and “D” start picking shit up, wanting me to take pictures... Clap got on 3 of his hats at the same time, holding his louie bag with his sun glasses on talking bout “take a pic”…  MAN idk where she comes from, but she got some loose screws I swear. “D” looks at me and says “LETS STEAL SOMETHING” sooooooo now im like bitch who the fuck are you and what did you do with my fran.  These bitches done lost their fucking minds being in this hot weather I swear.... IM LIKE BITCH DO YOU NOT REMEMBER THAT I AM ACTUALLY THIS NIGGAS FAN, why are yall doing this to me.. I was dead ass hurt like she was tryna steal from me. I was half way in tears, like why did satan set me up with them.... He comes back in the room. Im sitting there shaking my head, in my head. By now I don’t even wanna be there. One of my frans just tried to steal from him, another one is drunk in a corner and the other one probably just showed the man I love her tig ol bitties in the elevator. MAN this day is just going so bad. Eventually I just come to the conclusion that I’m not gonna say shit, imma let him think that were just ditsy bitches tryna say we hung out with a famous nigga. Smfh.  So I then said we should just leave and go to KOD, I mean my night was ruined already, I just wanted to drown myself in any type of alcohol and regret the rest of my night. BUT no the fuckery didn’t come to an end, not yet.
                                      
                                    

      We’re saying goodbye, getting ready to leave. I give him a hug, and took an extra deep breath like the creep I am. Clap just quickly walks out to room, so I’m like wtf, I follow behind her. And she goes “spank lets go, fucking follow me now”.. At this time I’m lost like bitch wait for everyone else. She goes “no bitch lets go, where’s the elevator? I have his glasses COME ON.” Omg omg omg omg omg omg omg MY FRAN IS THE CRAZIEST BITCH EVER I couldn’t do shit but laugh, if I didn’t laugh I was gonna cry. I just wanted to lay in the fetal position and cry for my mother. So I whispered "give them back"'. We turn around, see a light skinned bald headed dude and he goes “I would really hate to put my hands on you” NOW, if that wasn’t the funniest fucking thing. He really is just a calm ass soul, he said it so politely.... I really didn’t think it was possible for someone to be so nonchalant about wanting to beat a female’s ass. She looks him in his eyes, laughs, slowly takes the glasses off and says “I forgot I had them on”.

      This bitch laughed in his face.... Like didn’t try to make the lie seem believable, just laughed.  I walk out this place with my head down, heart just hurting so fucking bad. Mad as shit at anything with a vagina. And to make the night even worse we didn’t even end up going to KOD. So all in the matter of 24 hours, I got Joe Budden tickets, went to a show. Hugged my favorite rapper, drove him around. Found out my frans were thieves, and drunks. And never got to tell him that I loved him for real. All that was just too much for me. I can laugh about it now, because it was a while ago and ive gotten over it. I guess this is like the whole forgiving part of life, I forgave my girls, and I still hate them though for ruining my life. I later got a text about the sun glasses incident smh was told “keep your girls home next time” LORD. Well at least that means there could be a next time

      Claps still my fran, and joey is still the greatest to me. I just know not to mix business with pleasure or in this case, alcohol with your favorite rapper. I ended up getting to go to another one of his shows, I could have met him then too but I was just all set, traumatized really. I just wanted to be a fan from a distance, lurking in the shadows. You learn shit about people when put in fucked up positions. Joe budden is really an asshole, but I love him. My friend needs to attend an AA meeting but I love her for who she is. And I wouldn’t trade either of them

hope you enjoyed the fuckery.. PEACE OUT ;)